He finishes, but turns back for more. There is no more. What is a mom to feel when all she has to give is not enough? And right when I begin to feel as though I am not sufficient, I realize how true it is. I am not enough for him.
The barista yesterday, as he took my order he commented that it was beginning to feel like fall outside. I didn’t know. I told him that back home it is sweltering hot yet. So very different.
Mamas are meant to redeem the time. But how do we redeem something that hasn’t yet been spent? We are learning how to dog-ear time’s passing with life lived in such a way that the clock’s ticking will never erase it.
We redeem time by restoring its potential for beauty.
“We goin’ on a date, Mommy?”
I back out of the driveway onto an unfamiliar road, and set my GPS to a park we do not know. I’m praying for a mountain view.
“We goin’ on a date, Mommy?”
I back out of the driveway onto an unfamiliar road, and set my GPS to a park we do not know. I’m praying for a mountain view.
Exactly when I decide to turn the alarm off and sleep in, whatever that means for a mom of three boys four and under, the baby begins to cry. He wants breakfast. And I am the only one who can deliver.
I keep waiting. And then after two hours I finally stop waiting.
And only then—when I give up waiting and lie back to stare into the indigo blue sky eclipsed by marshmallow clouds, do I stop wasting time. Because time severed by divided attention is atrophied time–starved of all its potential.
I can’t find him. I hear his cry, still such a new sound to me. He’s weeks old, and I hear him in distress. My heart is now in full panic.
I rock the chair front to back. Your eyes remain locked on mine, blue orbs swaying left to right within pools of white, dancing in perfect cadence to our rocking. I can’t believe I almost missed this.
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A collaboration of writers. A collage of pieces focused on one weekly prompt. A five-minute challenge to write raw and exposed. Completely unedited. Magnificently honest.
This Week’s Prompt: Learn
This morning I held my firstborn near as I whispered a prayer into his ear. His hair smelled of sweat and bug spray. I memorized the feel of his embrace as I kissed him once more and sent him on his way.
Raising kids stirs something deep in our souls — an innate knowing that our time is finite. Taking my kids outside in creation, I’m discovering how to stretch our time and pack it to the brim with meaning. God’s creativity provides the riches of resources for teaching the next generation who He is and how He loves us. Join our adventure and discover inspiration and resources for refusing rush, creating habits of rest, living intentionally, and making the most of this beautiful life!