A father’s strength protects, supports and puts family first. But what about when he can’t heal, mend or make it better?
I wanted to barge into his memories. This man that nine years ago I swore to always cherish, I wanted to cherish now the part of him I never knew.
I come to this battle armed with phrases like “unfair-mental-load”, “I-never-get-a-break” and “you-just-don’t-understand.” But friends, I have been fighting the wrong enemy.
Never would I have imagined as I held my first baby such fearful responsibility would become my sustenance. Nor was I prepared when such love vied for first love.
The constant ding of her tablet, sitting on the table in front of her, was a relentless distraction from our meal. That is, until she turned the device toward her husband, and I realized…
It is one thing to get to know the love of your life before you slip those wedding bands onto each other’s fingers. It is a whole different thing to continue to get to know them years after you speak those vows.
It was that frightening hour. You know. 4 pm. Before the husband gets home. And when you have just about reached the end of all you can give. But then he sent that text message.
Finally I see him, and for the first time in days I forget about the call from the doctor telling me that I might have pre-cancerous cells on my cervix.
Please don’t ever think that I say this because I don’t love you enough. No my sons, I say this precisely because I love you so impossibly much.
There is a bigger promise I should have made to you that day as we slipped gold bands of promise around each other’s fingers; one I could not have imagined back then would need a vow to stand behind it.
Raising kids stirs something deep in our souls — an innate knowing that our time is finite. Taking my kids outside in creation, I’m discovering how to stretch our time and pack it to the brim with meaning. God’s creativity provides the riches of resources for teaching the next generation who He is and how He loves us. Join our adventure and discover inspiration and resources for refusing rush, creating habits of rest, living intentionally, and making the most of this beautiful life!